yes Im still alive. .

Its been how long since my last post *counting fingers and toes, can i borrow yours* yeah its been that long. Lets see where to start. Oh I could fire back at this littleshit. Thinks I will, well when I just walk in the door and someone just starts bitching, well why listen to it. . . , now this will be come a vicious cycle of cat and mouse she fires I fire, I just dont have the energy for it. Why you ask well I'll tell you, I have been battling a very very bad toothache wait no toothPAIN. It took 4 days just to get into the Docs office just for him to say he can ease the problem but not fix it, wants to refer me to a specialist, who which of course does not bother to take any insurance what-so-fucking-ever and they want all the money up front close to 900 u.s. dollars, and well I just dont carry that type of cash on me. Okay well back to the docs vist, he asked if I was taking time off work and I fired back nope dont work and I doubt you will be getting paid for this either, he didnt find that too funny to say the least. But when he asked how are the drugs working, I said "Your kidding right" his eyes got huge, I dont think he really believed that they hadnt done some good, well if you call taking two Loritabs and getting stoned off it any good well then . . but I was still in pain I just didnt give a holyfuck at the point in time. He then said well I am gonna *censored for content* and I was like holy shit the fucking bed, then he followed with I am not gonna numb it sense its soo infected and my eyes just popped right out of my head. I told him to go for it, it cant possibly be any worse then the pain I was already in, boy howdy was I wrong and very wrong was I. To quote a movie i saw last night "This is some shit of up which we will not put" and then came the numbing agent of choice, such sweet relief. He finished his gruesome procedure I felt all better for an hour or so, then I found the real reason why he didnt want to numb my ass, aparently when he did that it let loose the infection into my bloodstrem and i was sick, felt like the flu, I was hot with the chills and sweats all my muslces hurt and joints, it was a mess. So I came home after the Doc and found a new Doc to do the root canal for far less and he takes my insurance, amen. So now i have to wait another week for it to be fixed and its throbbing like its about to jump out of my mouth but hasnt made its mind up yet.

Tj poor Tj. Shes about to take off for a little to get a problem fixed and I hope its a one stop shop and thats it all better when she finally comes back. Shes probably gonna be pissed that i said anything in public and that I am typing in the journal after so long and right before shes leaving. May all that read this keep her in your prayers or whatever you do for luck.

I have started to listen to my radio station Rock Out. give me feed back on it.